Listening to: “Take that Road” – Across the Room
Lately, I’ve been putting more time and effort into learning to drive. At the start, I was terrified, and I remember the feeling. I still feel it every time I try something more intense. Today was the first time I drove in regular traffic, and apparently I did fine. It still seems like I need a run up to get into it, but I don’t always get or take one. So that’s that.
Last night, I had already decided I wanted to drive at least part of the way home, instead of just going round to the back road. To get myself psyched up for it, I thought a lot about courage and the type of things I want to inject into myself.
It usually isn’t a good idea to listen to what celebrities tell people to do, but it can be a very good idea to learn from them. The important thing is to treat anything anyone says as Just People. People can be wrong, they can be morons, or they can be profoundly right about something personal to oneself.
While listening to a couple of episodes of Chain Reaction, I came to a couple of conclusions. One, I’ll state briefly without explaining, because it is just for me. In the even that I actually read back on this entry, I will know what I mean, and that’s all that matters. I want to catch John Lloyd’s madness.
The other was something I had already thought about, and I had thought about it in connection to driving, so that was a fit that I replayed on purpose. It was about just having absolutely mad courage, do or die type of craziness.
The thing is, I used to live more like that. I used to take a lot more chances. Lately I’ve been accepting this pathetic excuse that I’m “busy”, that I have a lot of things on my plate, but that’s so far against the point. I have some number of hours in the day. That’s time enough to read, to study German or Spanish, to help around the house. Even if I potter around. I can improve.
Just because you’ve taught yourself the secret handshake doesn’t make you a member of the club. Get out there and do it, participate. Get involved. I don’t want to be sidelining or phoning in anything.
I also have to write my prompt for the writing group today. I know which one I want to go for, but it’s kind of last minute. Mostly, I think I just forgot about writing a prompt.